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| my FEEDBACK!!! |
| 02.29.04 (9:04 am) [edit] |
just took my shower and for those having their morning blues, it's already monday in singapore!
i've got so much to complaint about... in a nicer way, i want to give my FEEDBACK! but before i do my complainting... i wanna say something. [i]"you are a selfish bastard, and i was a fool."[/i] okay, i.m done.
firstly. i met this somebody yesterday(sunday), a friend's friend. he is damn damn stingy. super kay kaoi. i was so irritated. went to ikea for meal, and we've got 4 free drinks. he actually took drinks for himself only. when buying something. he needs to go 8-9 shops to compare prices. i mean if u go to 3-4 shops to compare the prices. i would think, okay, fine, get the most value for money. but 8-9 shops... isn't it too much? [i](and you are too much, you know who you are, you did that to me, don.t ever regret. cos' nobody will treat u like i do.)[/i] Opps! out of point again. haha. cos i.m so agitated. argh!
there.s also this case where i saw this furious mother teaching her daughter and son chinese language in mac donalds. she making them cry and stuff because the kids couldn.t recongise the characters. what the hell. it.s a fast food restaurant. can.t she teach them at home? i remember when i was young. my mom hit me when i can.t remember my spelling. c.mon parents (singaporean parents). there.s no point hitting ur kids and making them cry when they d.dnt do well for their during revision. how to concentrate when u.re scare and crying? i've been through it and i know how it feels. singapore kids are becoming worst. stress became part of their lives at very young age. so, i.m still consider lucky. [i](asshole)[/i]
there.s so much to do and so little time. [i](goodbye)[/i] it.s time to buck up.
[i]argh! so much anger i.m looking for a kill - [b]myself?![/b][/i]
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| my.last.question |
| 02.29.04 (6:23 am) [edit] |
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will u come to my funeral?
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| t.A.T.u |
| 02.27.04 (6:31 pm) [edit] |
t.A.T.u received the best new breakthrough award at the recent mtvasia awards. sadly they didnot perform.cos i.ve always like their performance.
[LINE]
show.me.love
t.A.T.u
This was an accident
Not the kind where sirens sound
Never even noticed
We're suddenly crumbling
Tell me how you've never felt
Delicate or innocent
Do you still have doubts that
Us having faith makes any sense
Tell me nothing ever counts
Lashing out or breaking down
Still somebody loses 'cause
There's no way to turn around
Staring at your photograph
Everything now in the past
Never felt so lonely I
Wish that you could show me love
Show me love, show me love, show me love,
Show me love, show me love
'Til you open the door
Show me love, show me love, show me
love,
Show me love, show me love,
'Til I'm up off the floor
Show me love, show me love show me love,
Show me love, show me love,
'Til it's inside my pores
Show me love, show me love, show me love,
Show me love, show me love,
'Til I'm screaming for more
Random acts of mindlessness
Commonplace occurrences
Chances and surprises
Another state of consciousness
Tell me nothing ever counts
Lashing out or breaking down
Still somebody loses 'cause
There's no way to turn around
Tell me how you've never felt
Delicate or innocent
Do you still have doubts that
Us having faith makes any sense
You play games, I play tricks
Girls and girls, but you're the one
Like a game of pick-up sticks
Played by fuckingg lunatics
Show me love, show me love
Give me all that I want
Show me love, Show me love
'Til I'm screaming for more
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| it.s been a while |
| 02.27.04 (8:18 am) [edit] |
it.s been a while. i.m feeling much more better now and really much much more. i.m glad the blues didn.t last that long. there.s so much responsibilities behind my back. but still will think of it. [i]"be blurr"[/i]
i was talking to a new friend how great tblog is as compared to other blog services. tbucks is especially interesting. and tfriends. my first tfriend. "hi there" if you are reading :)
going to katong area tomorrow again, to "relive the peranakan culture." fun - should be fun. but it.s a bit early.
if you guys interested in the THE PERANAKAN CULTURE, A MARRIAGE OF CHINESE AND MALAY HERITAGE. i'll tell u more. just leave a message or comment.
good day.
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| traveling |
| 02.27.04 (2:28 am) [edit] |
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i love traveling very much and i suppose most people do. but not most people do what i do (studying in the travel industry). there's so many places i want to cover, so little money i have. traveling mates isn.t much of a problem i guess. i.ll be able to travel alone and sometimes it.s not a bad thing. traveling anyone?
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| say it isn.t so |
| 02.26.04 (8:15 am) [edit] |
say.it.isn't.so
gareth.gates
Skies are dark
It's time for rain
Final call
You board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears, you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow
How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore?
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Mmmmm....
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say isn't so
Ten to five at least we've tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I'd never found you, whoa...
How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be stong enough to carry on?
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say isn't so
Miles and miles to go,
Before I can say, before I can lay
My love for you to sleep
Oh darling oh
I've got miles and miles to go,
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again.
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say isn't so
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say isn't so
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say isn't so
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| i.m so full |
| 02.26.04 (7:52 am) [edit] |
i.m so full to do anything now. ate so much things. just finish up some sushi my elder brother brought home from work (he work in a japanese restaurant now). ahh... had a pretty good day (finally). pretty good day, by myself...
i went to town in the afternoon and first stop to my mazi's shop. brought back lotsa mollycoddle.net name cards and bought a 'dress' earring for my sister.
spend a long long time in library@orchard. brought back some memories. but still, searching of books is more important then anything. i.m filled with inspiration there.
a run away from school today gives me a time off from anything. and it.s time for me to make a comeback. i can't believe people notice that i.m not feeling very well. today, in the evening, esther ng text (sms) me and try to cheer me up. we're not really close in class. but still, it.s pretty nice of her to do that.
talked to zekai on icq earlier. i didn't spill everything in my heart. but he would understand how i feel. and something he said 'hit' me at once. [b][i]"as usual, it.s not easy to choose this path."[/i][/b] mmm... well said. it.s really not easy.
anyway, suddenly, i really think i.ve got mental health problem. but don't worry guys, i won.t kill!
there.s this movie i really really want to watch. BIG FISH, opening on thursday (tomorrow) in singapore. call me if anyone of you want to watch too.
going back school tomorrow. (gillian just icq me, even she ask me to take care - [i]i must really take care of myself then[/i]). lotsa stuff to settle tomorrow. gotta get the ball-rolling.
cheers mate.
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| interior.desginer wanted! |
| 02.26.04 (6:37 am) [edit] |
wanted. if u are in singapore and u charge inexpensively. u are wanted! i need help with my school project on some drawing of buildings, architechure, artist impression stuff. if u from overseas and think can help me over the internet, feel free to leave your contacts to me.
thank u.
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| run.away |
| 02.25.04 (8:35 pm) [edit] |
run away . run away
i.m running away from all the trouble. need a time out.
i didn.t go school today. i feel i need time out for myself. went to the clinic i always go. as usual, my faourite doctor. he always ask if i need 2 day medicial leave.
if i.m feeling fine, i might want to go down town and spend all my money. that might cheer me up.
i don.t know what's wrong with my friend's icq. she keep message me to this particular joke link:
:arrow: [url=]http://www.joecartoon.com
for those who feel lonely or has nothing to do online, you might want to chat with a bot online:
:arrow: [url=]http://www.oliverbot.com
not sure if the bot is a male or female, but its name is oliver. one good thing about oliver is, its not rude. however. bot will always be bot.
[LINE]
CRAIG.DAVID
walking.away
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights i'm sorry to say lady
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby
don't listen to the games they play
girl I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights I'm sorry to say lady
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
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| 51 things.about.me |
| 02.25.04 (10:08 am) [edit] |
1. What's your full name?
fugen wyatt lee
2. Were you named after anyone?
fugen is a very unique name, lee is my family name and wyatt is name after a whitelighter, guardian angel.
3. Do you wish on stars?
yes, shooting stars. only seen 1 in my life. but i'll never forget the stars my friends and i watch at the jetty in east coast park - they are moving and darn pretty.
4. Which finger is your favorite?
i hate my fingers.
5. When did you last cry?
today.
6. Who do you admire?
my mom. she's the best mom in the world.
7. What is the #1 priority in your life?
i wanted to say love and friendship. but i decided to to put myself as the #1 priority in my life.
8. Your favorite lunch meal?
nasi lemak. it.s asian food (for those who don't know). rice cook in coconut milk. with chilli, and lotsa other stuff.
9. Any bad habits?
bite-ing my nails and have very negative thinking.
10. What store would you never be caught dead in?
i don.t quite understand this question, but if the question were to change to what store i love most, definitely toy stores.
11. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
no.
12. Are you a daredevil?
sometimes. sometimes there's things in life is a must-do.
13. Do looks matter?
yes, pretty much.
14. What's your favorite piece of clothing?
i love polo tees now, and my favourite is my white ralph polo tee and the stripes lacoste polo tee.
15. When was the last time you punched someone?
on monday, i punched lengkok (andrew). for fun.
16. Are you trendy?
sometimes i try to keep up with trend. most of the time, i just don't bother.
17. What do you do to prevent anger?
i write weblog, complaint to my diary, ignored and stop all communication. best way to prevent anger is to ignore everything and start walking (to nowhere).
18. Are you passive or aggressive?
passive-aggressive. i don.t enjoy tell others what to do. but most of the time, that is my job.
19. Who is your idol?
jay chou
20. Who is your second family?
michelle (my mazi) and edwin (gugu).
21. Do you trust others easily?
no. it takes me a lot of love to trust a person. and usually i don't. when somebody you trust lies to you, it.s darn awful feeling.
22. What did you play with as a child?
all my toys are 2nd hand. from others unwanted toys. so, i play with anything. barbie dolls, cooking toys, lego (my favourite), soft toys, racing cars (tamiya), swords, police & thief games, etc.
23. What class(es) during high school do you think was/were a waste of time?
high school in singapore is called secondary school. i think civil moral education (cme) was the most waste of time. you'll never fail the subject. and i hate physical education (pe) lessons. i regret most is for not study chinese well. i feel writing chinese now is very interesting. i might want to learn more about writing chinese.
24. Do you like sappy love songs?
unfortunately, yes.
25. Have you ever been on radio or television?
no for television, and sort-of-a-yes for radio. i dedicate songs on perfect 10, 98.7fm where jean danker reads out my dedicate.
26. Have you ever intentionally hurt someone?
a lot of times. a lot of times when i try to put my point straight and when i'm saying the facts, people feel very hurting. it's time for people in singapore to see the outside world and learn how to learn to take in the words people say.
27. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
mosh pit should be those dancing hole (like the mtv asia awards)? nope.
28. Do you feel understood most of the time?
no really.
29. Would you rather have a sore throat or an upset stomach?
Sore throat. i hate the feeling of having an upset stomach.
30. What are your nickname (s)?
gen, ah gen, fu, ah fu, xiao fu, di di, ah du gen, gen gen, chick(g)en.
31. Could you be a vegetarian?
yes, but not for long.
32. Would you ever bungee jump?
yes, whenever i have the chance (and money).
33. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
no way, i'm a lazy person.
34. What are you worried about right now?
my grades, my projects, and the mood swings (or mental health) that i have.
35. Do you ever wear overalls?
what's that?
36. Your favorite Popsicle flavor?
what's that? drink flavor? cherry coke is my favourite.
37. Who do you think won't respond at all?
respond to what? anyway, i already get used to people not responding to me.
38. What kind of pets do you have?
none. i feel it's a burden to have a pet.
39. Do you have a driver's license?
i wish i have. i quit becos i didn.t have money to learn (i had to pay my school fees that time). but i might want to go back learning driving again.
40. Last person who called you?
esther, trying to check if i'm okay when i leave school. but i didnt answer.
41. Last person who saw you cry?
myself, looking at the mirror.
42. Last person you had a drink with?
my friend, zekai, at a club.
43. Last person you went to the movies with?
a person now i call friend (i hope).
44. Last person you went to the mall with?
a person now i call friend (i hope).
45. Do you have a crush on anyone?
not a crush anymore.
46. What's in your wallet?
some notes ($), cards.
47. What's on the walls of your room?
nothing much. 13 small mirrors, only.
48. Is your bed single, twin, double, queen, king?
it.s a special size. specially bought from ikea. it.s something like a double.
49. What is in your bedroom?
i share my bedroom which my mom, my dad, my niece, and my nephew. so, beside the breathing people, cupboards with clothes. there's bed in my bedroom.
50. What is the best thing that has happened to you this week?
the best thing is... sorry, i can't think of any.
51. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
purple
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| am i suffering from these illness? |
| 02.25.04 (9:02 am) [edit] |
[b]Depression [/b]
Depression is a common mental illness which often goes undiagnosed or is dismissed as the “blues”. But a long-term feeling of sadness, brought on by stress, grief or loss of self-worth, can lead to mental and physical problems.
Alcohol addiction, weakening of the body caused by loss of appetite and suicidal thoughts are just some of the many possible results if depression is not treated.
Some of the more obvious signs of depression include a [b][i]permanent low or sad mood, constant anxiety or irritability, loss of appetite and weight, [/i][/b]alcoholism and a [i][b]withdrawal from social activities[/b][/i].
People who are depressed need day-to-day encouragement and support from family and friends. In more serious cases, they should also seek counselling and professional help. Medication may be necessary in some cases.
[b]Stress [/b]
Beware if the usual stresses of career, finances and family start to lead to more than sleepless nights. While no one is a stranger to stress, any adult should take note if he senses an increase in his usual level of stress. If allowed to fester, stress can lead to high blood pressure, stomach ulcers, depression or mental illness. It can even cause a heart attack and nervous breakdown.
Some of the signs and symptoms of high stress include [i][b]fast heartbeats, tense muscles, headaches, loss of appetite and sleeplessness.[/b][/i] Stress control is essential to health, and victims of stress need to get organised to plan their time well, relook at their goals and think positively.
Relaxation techniques and counselling by friends or experts are some good ways to overcome stress, but patients should seek professional treatment if the symptoms of stress persist.
[b]Schizophrenia [/b]
This major mental illness can occur in men and women, usually between 15 and 40 years old. It is not a rare disease; many Singaporeans do suffer from this ailment. Schizophrenia may show its presence in some ways:
Delusions – paranoia that someone is trying to kill the patient, self-delusions of great power and ability, or paranoia about people following him or tracking his movements and conversation.
Hallucinations – a patient may complain about hearing voices and appear to be speaking to himself.
[i][b]Abnormal thinking and behaviour – unusual swings in mood, depression or strange behaviour and actions, such as laughing for no reason, shouting at people or sudden restlessness.[/b][/i]
Schizophrenia must be treated professionally, and should you detect these signs in someone close to you, you should take that person for treatment.
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it.s pretty scary how these so-called mood swings can be a illness and end up taking up your life.
i feel i'm suffering those mental illness. stress is definite.
what i have?
i've got long-term of feeling sad, low or sad mood, constant anxiety or irritability,
loss of appetite sometimes,
fast heartbeats,
headaches,
sleeplessness very often,
unusual swings in mood,
depression or strange behaviour and actions, such as laughing for no reason,
shouting at people or sudden restlessness
that means i've got mental health problem?
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| remember urself as a kid? |
| 02.25.04 (5:04 am) [edit] |
my niece (4years old) and nephew (2 years old) fought just now. they pinch each other's leg, hit each other with their bare hands.
results, my baby nephew won with his last stance, pulling my niece's hair and shaking her head.
in the end, both of them cried
hugged by my parents and now they're noisy, laughing and playing toys again.
i remember when i was a kid, i didn.t have much friends, and how things never change, i still didn't have much friends now. learning to treasure my friends now, hoping it's not too late.
when i was a kid, i didn.t have much toys and my parent are always busy with work. i.m always alone when i was a kid. my elder bro don.t live at home since young, my elder sister were a teenager at that time and had her own life, and myself, always alone at home. money was so important to us last time, work is always on my parent's mind. all the loneliness and lack of friends and lack of communication since young, made me don.t know how to express myself, made me having a weird character. made me who i am now. i never learn and don.t know how to express my love to my friends and family. it.s too awkward to change when you are the way you are for all your life.
like today, i just went off without a word... friends sms me, call me and give me comfort. i acknowledge that. and i am very glad my friends care about me.
i would take this chance to express my love to my family, my mom, my sister, my niece and my cutie pie nephew. and my friends, i love you guys too, mazi, edwin, zekai, ivan, esther, agnes, agnes, sherie, etc...
thanks david for the sms.
still remember when you were a kid?
please share it with me.
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| exorcise ur ex |
| 02.25.04 (4:29 am) [edit] |
Exorcise ur ex
When
you can't get your ex out of your head it’s all too easy to remain
possessed by past passions. The only way to lay old ghosts to rest is to
exorcise your ex!
Release the demons
Before you can move on, you need to let all those pent-up feelings out. It’s
totally normal to feel sad, upset, disappointed, lonely and even downright
furious!
Talk to someone you trust and have a good blub.
Punch your pillow and deface his photo if it makes you feel better.
Whatever it takes to squeeze
out all that hurt you’ve been holding on to. If you keep your feelings
inside, they’ll haunt you forever.
Leave the past behind
Now you need to close an imaginary door to stop those feelings creeping
back in. Start by removing everything that reminds you of him. Change your
room around so it looks different than it was when you were together.
List the reasons you’re better off without him/ her and remember to include
all his ugly points. Now make a list of the things you want from a boyfriend/ girlfriend in
the future. You’ll soon see that the past is best left behind you, while
the future has much better things in store.
Day by Day
The ghost of your relationship will lurk for a while, so it’s important
to stay strong everyday. Stop asking if she/ he called when you were out. No more
checking your emails obsessively and whatever you do, don’t be tempted
to call or text him/ her.
You also need to banish him/ her from your thoughts so no more
dreaming about getting back together when you go to bed at night! [i][b]This is
the hardest part,
but hang in there and you’ll get through it[/i][/b].
Life after your ex
An experience like this will change you, and that’s good because you’ve
learnt from it and you’re ready to move on as a new, improved person.
This is an excellent time to reorganise your life and set some new goals.
Stop looking back and start looking forward. Your past passion is dead, let
it rest in peace!
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| tests.quizzes |
| 02.24.04 (10:13 pm) [edit] |
What Video Game Character Am I?
 I am Mr Do.
I am sedentary by nature, enjoying passive entertainment, eating when the mood takes me, and playing with my food. I try to avoid conflict, but when I'm angered, I can be a devil - if you force me to fight, I will crush you. With apples. What Video Game Character Are You?
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What Flavour Am I?
 Cor blimey, I taste like Tea.
I am a subtle flavour, quiet and polite, gentle, almost ambient. My presence in crowds will often go unnoticed. Best not to spill me on your clothes though, I can leave a nasty stain. What Flavour Are You?
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| the.song |
| 02.24.04 (9:48 pm) [edit] |
Amazed
Lonestar
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you.
[LINE]
it.s a classic isn't it? gorgous song.
[i][b]i wish i could own this song forever[/b][/i]
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| terrible morning |
| 02.24.04 (7:29 pm) [edit] |
people must be wondering where i.ve gone to after the statistic test. here am i . at home writing my blog. i did so damn badly for my test i almost cried in class. nobody would know about it. i got so angry with myself for not studying. for not looking at the book. that i pack my bag and went straight out to the door.
something's on my mind and i can.t seems to put it off. it.s a 40% test. even if i did really well or even full marks in my final exam. i.m not going to get good grades. i feel so upset with myself now... it.s all my fault...
it.s such a down side of my life...
have a fucking good life for all.
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| are.you.happy.quiz |
| 02.24.04 (7:49 am) [edit] |
i took this [b]are you happy quiz [/b]from the link below:
:arrow: [url=]http://www.oprah.com/spiritse...[/url]
THE "ARE YOU HAPPY" QUIZ RESULTS
Your total: 40
30 to 49: You're not miserable, true, but your sunny side could use a nudge out of retirement. Think about your strengths (keep thinking) and the activities you love; build more of your life around them. Obvious? Yes—but so is sleeping an extra hour when you're tired: The trick is to do it.
i.m not exactly happy, am i?
try it out yourself
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| stuck |
| 02.24.04 (3:01 am) [edit] |
stuck
stacie.orrico
I can't get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can't seem to find a way
To leave this love behind
I ain't trippin
I'm just missing
You know what I'm saying
You know what I need
You can't be hanging on a string
While you make me cry
I try to give you everything
But you just gave me lies
[i][b]Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I'll be wishing you will call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do..
I'm such a fool
For you[/i][/b]
[i][b]I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
I'm still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could be for
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
It's true
I'm stuck on you[/b][/i]
Now love's a broken record that's
Been skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we've got to play these games we play?
Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I'll be wishing you will call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
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| ura visit (and ur sour mind) |
| 02.24.04 (2:55 am) [edit] |
visited ura today and it doesn.t seems to help at all (for my project). however it.s pretty facinating to see the exhibits especially the one on the transportation system where there.s travellator (u heard of it?), escalator, multi-story carpark sort of thing. a ship moving in a wave-like form and a "speed" train. it moves really fast when you hit one of the button. the exhibits are pretty interactive. visitors could actually do some hands-on instead of just look and reading off the exhibits.
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[i][b]i read your blog and i know that.s why you did what you had done.... keep on looking at your past, and you will never go forward and grow. sour.[/b][/i]
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| shut.up |
| 02.23.04 (3:06 am) [edit] |
shut up
black.eyed.pea
(Chorus)
Shut up
Just shut up
Shut up [3x]
Shut it up, just shut up
Shut up
Just shut up
Shut up [3x]
Shut it up, just shut up, shut up
We try to take it slow
But we're still losin control
And we try to make it work
But it still ends up the worst
And I'm craaazzzy
for tryin to be yo laaadddy
I think I'm goin crazy
Girl, me and you were just fine (you know)
We wine and dine
Did them things that couples do when in love (you know)
Walks on the beach and stuff (you know)
Things that lovers say and do
I love you boo
, I love you too
I miss you a lot, I miss you even more
That's why I flew you out
When we was on tour
But then something got out of hand
You start yellin when I would bring friends
Even though I had legitimate reasons (oo shit)
You know I have to make them dividends (oo shit)
How could you trust our private lives girl
That's why you don't believe my lies
And quick to say
[Chorus]
[i][b]Why does emotion gotta move so fast
Love is progress if you could make it last
Why is it that you just lose control
Every time you agree on takin it slow
So why does it got to be so damn tough
Cuz fools in lust could never get enough of love
Showin the love that you be givin
Changing up your livin[/b][/i]
For a lovin transistion
Girl it's a misson tryin to get you to listen
You! Mad at each other has become our tradition
You yell, I yell, everybody yells
Got neighbors across the street sayin
“Who the hell?!?”
Who the hell?
What the hell's going down?
Too much of the bickering
Kill it with the sound and
[Chorus]
Girl our love is dyin
Why can't you stop tryin
I never been a quitah
But I do deserve betta
Believe me I will do bad
Let's forget the past
And let's start this new plan
Why? Cuz it's the same old routine
And then next week I hear them scream
Girl I know you're tired of the things they say
You're damn right
Cuz I heard them lame dame excuses just yesterday
That was a different thing
No it ain't
it was a different thing
No it ain't
it was a different thing
It was the same damn thing
Same ass excuses
Boy you're usless
whhoooaaaa
(Chorus)
Shut up
Just shut up
Shut up [3x](no ooooo uh uh)
Shut it up, just shut up
Shut up
Just shut up
Shut up [3x]boy no now please go, no i don't know
Shut it up, just shut up(nooooooooooooo)
when we try to take it slow
But we're still losin control
And we try to make it work
But it still ends up the worst
And I'm craaazzzy
can i be yo laaadddy
I think I'm goin crazy
Stop the talking baby
Or I start walking babyx13 on 4th (ooonnnoooooowooooo)
Is that all there is x12 starting from 5th
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| swollen eyes |
| 02.23.04 (2:32 am) [edit] |
everyone is asking what happened to me this morning (until i speak this afternoon). everyone says i look awkward, different today. everyone asked why my eyes got so swollen today. some asked if i cried. many asked what happened. one even asked if i.ve gone for surgery to "cut" double eye-lid. i don.t know why my eye swollen and didn.t know it.s that bad. or maybe i know why. maybe you know why. but it doesn.t matter. i just did.not had a good night last night. that.s all.
[b][i]friends are so damn important afterall[/i][/b], and i can.t believe i said this.
this is something i wrote in my collection of writings:
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Title: [b]Friend Ship Don't Last[/b]
I believe friendship don't last
Even it does
Never forever
Friendship is the greatest
Friendship is all fun
Friendship forever
But that is never
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then i wrote another writing to contradict myself:
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Title :[b] What Are Friends For[/b]
Friends as company
Friends as listening
Friends as shopping
Friends as sharing
Friends as concerning
Friends as totally
Friends are what we need
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i went to cold storage and stock up tibits. juices. sweets to keep me company. and who is accompanying you?
good day
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| unchained.melody |
| 02.22.04 (8:23 am) [edit] |
unchained.melody
elvis.presley
Oh, my love, my darling
I’ve hungered for your touch, a long lonely time
And time goes by, so slowly and time can do so much
Are you, still mine?
I need your love, I need your love
God speed your love to me
Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea
To the waiting arms of the sea
Lonely rivers cry, wait for me, wait for me
To the open arms, wait for me
My love, my darling, I’ve hungered for your kiss
Are you still mine?
I need your love, I need your love
God, speed your love, to me
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| unchained.melody |
| 02.22.04 (8:23 am) [edit] |
unchained.melody
elvis.presley
Oh, my love, my darling
I’ve hungered for your touch, a long lonely time
And time goes by, so slowly and time can do so much
Are you, still mine?
I need your love, I need your love
God speed your love to me
Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea
To the waiting arms of the sea
Lonely rivers cry, wait for me, wait for me
To the open arms, wait for me
My love, my darling, I’ve hungered for your kiss
Are you still mine?
I need your love, I need your love
God, speed your love, to me
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| good news |
| 02.22.04 (7:16 am) [edit] |
good news. i'm dying.
3 cheers for me.
good bye for now.
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| infatuation and love |
| 02.22.04 (4:39 am) [edit] |
i learnt this new word, infatuation, this year. i didn't understand what i was until someone told me.
i was looking for an answer online and i found one. these answers cost US$25.00 and the best thing is i cannot copy and paste, so i have to type everything
confused asked dr. truth "what is love?"
"are there equality in love?" and
"how do you know if it's a crush, infatuation or love?
dr. truth answered very well and dr. truth's answer:
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Dear "Confused"
Thank you for your excellent questions. These are easy to ask and difficult to answer but here goes: I'll start with the second one first.
[b]In the beginning, infatuation (or a crush) and love feel exactly the same.[/b]
We feel like our hearts are opening up for the first time and being around the person of our choice feels just like magic, like someone has cast a spell on us and that the world fades away in the presence of our beloved.
Colors are brighter, birds sing more sweetly and happiness overwhelms us. This is wonderful news when it happens.
Unfortunately, the down side is that these feelings of being inebriated on love do not last for very long. Once they fade, people are disappointed that they no longer feel the crush or infatuation to the intensity that they did before; they therefore feel they have fallen "out of love."
Actually,[b] this is where love begins and infatuation ends.[/b]
[b]Real love means understanding and sharing[/b] with our loved ones as deeply as possible.
[b]Real love is the total acceptance of another human being[/b] with all their flaws, and believe me, we all have them.
[b]Real love means letting go of all pretense, fantasy, expectations[/b] that our lover will be perfect and that we will never feel negatively and get angry at them.
This is pure nonsense.
The problem that most people have is that once this infatuated feeling dies, they don't have the understanding to let the love pass into the next stage which is more like the one i just described and, while it doesn't seem as exciting anymore, it is [b]replaced by a feeling of security and completeness which is marvelous and comforting[/b], safe and loving.
[b]As far as your first concern: all real love is based on mutual respect, admiration and concern with each others well-being.[/b]
Having said that, [b]equality is the only way![/b]
Now this doesn't mean that we all always feel equal in our feelings. Sometimes, one person in a relationship will feel closer and the other more distant but, overall, people in close relationships should feel equally close and equally loving.
They should feel the complete safety to be wholly themselves and they should feel that, while they could probably survive life on their own, having this particular person enhances their sense of why they have been put on this planet!
Remember, nothing else matters without love.
As the Beatles have said: "Love is all you really need!"
Sincerely,
Dr. TRuth
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So, when infatuation ends, it's your choice to choose to fall in love, or "out of love".
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| have.you.ever |
| 02.22.04 (4:04 am) [edit] |
have.you.ever
brandy
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right?
Have you ever?
Have you ever?
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand?
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away?
You'd give anything
To make them feel the same?
Have you ever searched for words
To get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start?
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life?
[i][b]You'd do just about anything
To look into their eyes?
Have you finally found the one
You've given your heart to
Only to find that one
Won't give their heart to you? [/b][/i]
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait
For that day when they will care?
[i][b]What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby?
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand
How I need you next to me?
Gotta get you in my world [/b][/i]
'Cause, baby, I can't sleep
Have you ever?
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| what.my.heart.wants.to.say |
| 02.20.04 (10:54 pm) [edit] |
gareth.gates
what.my.heart.wants.to.say
you're amazing
so amazing
have I told you
enough
you're my angel
guardian angel
god knows I've been blessed with love
but if I been gone tomorrow
would you know how deep my loves goes
have I ever told you
you're the one
if the words don't come my way
hope its still love
hope it still shows
if the words don't come my way
hope you still know what my heart wants to say
words so tender
I surrender
to this feeling
so true
my affirmation
my inspiration
darling I have been blessed with you
if the words don't come my way
hope you still know
hope it still shows
if the words don't come my way
I hope you still know what my heart wants to say
[i][b]but if I be gone tomorrow
would you know how deep my loves goes
if I was gone forever
would you know how much I care[/b][/i]
[b][i]you make me feel like flying
and failing all emotion
that everytime you look at me
you see it in my eyes
if the words don't come my way
I hope you still know[/i][/b]
if the words don't come my way
I hope you still know
I hope it still shows
if the words don't come my way
I hope you still know
what my heart wants to say
if the words don't come my way
I hope you still know
hope it still shows
[b][i]if the worst don't come my way[/i][/b]
I hope you still know
I hope it still shows
I hope still you know
what my heart wants to say
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